Ex-drug addict Miss USA Tara Conner to appear in the Oprah Winfrey show tonight

Several celebrities had untimely deaths caused by suspected drug use. Most people know someone who’s been affected by drug abuse, but no one ever imagined this health epidemic would infiltrate a wholesome American institution like the Miss USA Pageant. Yes TV viewers, Oprah will meet the beauty queen Tara Conner tonight (2 January 2012), who will reveal for the first time what led to her headline-making drug scandal. Tara Conner has a beautiful smile, but beneath it reflects a pain of battling addiction and self-doubt. In 2006, shortly after being crowned Miss USA, Tara Conner's unbecoming behavior began to make headlines. The media ran reports of Tara's underage drinking and drug abuse, as well as scandalous photos of this blonde beauty queen. Then, eight months into her year-long reign, Tara tested positive for cocaine. When business mogul Donald Trump, co-owner of the Miss USA organization, called a press conference, everyone—including Tara—expected him to strip Tara of her crown. Instead, Donald offered her a second chance. Tara agreed to go to rehab and the decision changed her life. Tara, when she was just 13 years old, she started turning heads in Russell Springs, Kentucky, the small town where she was raised. On the advice of a family friend, she began entering beauty pageants. Tara's beauty and poise won her crown after crown. At the age 14, Tara's parents got divorced, and soon after, her beloved grandfather died. "I feel like I was crying out for help, but no one could hear me because everyone was so concerned with their own life," Tara says. In high school, Tara found a way to mask the pain. "I started having alcohol when I was 14 years old. I had my first drink when, I think, I was 14," she says. "It wasn't me moving to New York and becoming Miss USA that thrust me into the spotlight. It wasn't that at all. I had the disease of alcoholism from the get-go." Furthermore, Tara got in trouble at school or her grades started to slip, she says she learned that if she won a pageant, all was forgiven. "My name was in the papers all over again," she says. "And people thought, 'Well, she can't be a drug addict if she's winning pageants.'" Even Brenda, Tara's mother, was fooled. "While she lived at home, I just thought she was misbehaving," she says. "There were times when I would hear rumors, and I would confront her. But she had a way of telling me what I wanted to hear. She knew what to say to me so that I could believe her. ... She was a master manipulator." Tara says lying and manipulating became a way of life. After awhile, she told so many lies and did so many pain-numbing drugs that she says she didn't know who she was anymore. Now, Tara is three years sober, and she says it's a wonder she lived to share her story. "I don't know why I was spared," she says. To anyone facing the same battle, Tara says there's someone out there who feels the same way you do, and there's help available. "Even if you don't love yourself at all, other people do love you," To know the rest of the story right from the heart of Tara, tune in to the Oprah Winfrey Show on Big CBS Love tonight at 8 pm.